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[damnpire]

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D's mind is a cacophony of things.

The landscape is shadow and darkness, and it is chilly and reserved where D sits in it; he feels like a simple young man. Quiet, soft, human. But behind the stoicism is a warm, sensual, and elegant sliver of something primordial and powerful. Embracing it is hypnotic, arousing, yet also a little horrifying.

Amidst all of this is something else, too: a craggled and old presence which can be heard on occasion cackling or chattering separately, the crusty voice belonging neither to D or the peculiar entity in the space.

Comments

[lockedon]

[ HELLO? He wouldn't tell D to eat cake just for Dokja's sake. Though now he's realizing there's a lot he doesn't know about D's dietary restrictions and requirements. Hmmmm.... The way D phrases that sounds so awkward though. ]

Do you enjoy eating though?

[ He's not gonna force some guy to force down cake just for the sake of birthday tradition. ]

[damnpire]

It depends on what I'm eating, or drinking.

[He likes very hard booze apparently............... but little else. Less because it has a terrible taste like Liem's, and more he simply does not need it to function, so why bother?

If maybe he would only say this to Eustace who is trying so hard to accommodate his stupid ass.]

I don't mind trying some for the party.

[lockedon]

[ So Eustace needs to bring hard liquor to the party, got it. (He will not be doing this.)

But wow, what a vague answer. It doesn't really give him a better idea of things, but also Eustace isn't invested enough to pry deeper into D's individual food likes and dislikes. He'll leave it in D's hands then. ]

I asked Gray to make a cake. [ Since she's been deep in baking hell. ] It's up to you whether or not you want to try any.

[ Will D's het feelings overcome his ambivalence towards food...stay tuned. ]

[damnpire]

[GRITS TEETH SINCE D'S HET-ASS FEELINGS IMMEDIATELY BECOME BETTER AT THE IDEA OF EATING IF IT'S BEING NICE ABOUT TO GRAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!]

I'll try some.

[Why does he change his mind so fast suddenly?! No one will ever know... WAIT, Eustace will know. NOOOO, Eustace will be able to tell how quickly his energy changes when Gray is mentioned... Well, not in general mentioned, but mentioned about helping out with the cake making.

Thinks about how Dokja tried to get him to talk to her about fucking pie randomly as a first meeting conversation...]

[lockedon]

[ Hello? The het feelings?? He was just going to leave the conversation at that and let D exist in peace for the rest of the day but now he's not sure if he should say something.

Maybe he should broach the topic very carefully.... ]

You seem to be getting along well with Gray.

[ That's subtle enough, right. ]

[damnpire]

[Noooo, he was so close to continuing his house chore in peace. Now he is going to be grilled about heterosexual feelings he'd rather not acknowledge.

(Sometimes, you accept you will be alone forever.)]

Her company is never bothersome.

[He delivers this so indifferently, but his feelings are soft about it. He is not head over heels in love, but he finds Gray pleasing to be with when they happen to be together.

They are the same person... Is this self-cest?]

[lockedon]

[ Wish Eustace would shake D until he accepts that he deserves to be loved by others. But alas, he's too even-tempered and aloof to ever consider anything like that, which is why he accepts D's answer for what it is instead of grilling further. (Though he does find those soft feelings very kawaii.) ]

I'm sure she'd be happy to hear that. [ In fact: ] You should tell her yourself sometime.

[ Tell her about the het feelings...even though she probably already knows via Aspect. Still, it's nice to say things aloud sometimes. ]

[damnpire]

[Don't just accept his dumbass answer. It's not like D wouldn't accept Eustace's answer either for something similar... Maybe he should try to talk to Eustace again about Dokja (no).

HE DOESN'T WANT TO TELL HER HET FEELINGS. This is about Gray and Rin!!! This is about Gray's gay feelings.]

I don't think she has to hear it from me.

[It's not like Gray has terrible self esteem, right. She has Dokja and... well, she has Dokja to tell her she isn't bothersome.]

[lockedon]

[ Gray can have g(r)ay feelings and D can have het feelings, there's nothing wrong with the two existing simultaneously. Fortunately (or unfortunately??), Eustace does not know about the gay feelings so he can only work with what he has, which are the het feelings. Sorry, D. ]

Maybe not, but I'm sure she would appreciate it all the same.

[ You don't have to have terrible self-esteem to enjoy a compliment from a friend. But D lucks out here because Eustace doesn't actually enjoy involving himself too much in the personal affairs of others. This is about as far as he's willing to go. ]

I'll let you know if anything else comes up regarding the party.

[ The party that is now probably going to be in April because March is Oracle month....F. ]

[damnpire]

[PLEASE LEARN ABOUT THE GAY FEELINGS. Someone please tell Eustace about the... well... now after everything, is Eustace going to let Gray elope with someone across factions. I hope so. Our gay Romeo and Juliet.

ALSO STOP not us keeping you stapled to this game by way of having to wait for a birthday time.]

I'll keep that in mind.

[He's trying to picture himself casually telling Gray her company is great, and he can feel his soul shriveling into a raisin. Not the dog.]

Thank you. If you need help, let me know.